The year is 2020. Its about just one thing, COVID-19 and all the chaos resulting from that around the world. It seems in some ways that the time stands still and the clocks have stopped working. The whole world is under lock down, every profession is affected in some way, hundreds of events are cancelled, thousands of people are being laid off and many institutions and organizations are implementing a hiring freeze for the year and beyond.
Amidst this chaos, I am rethinking my career. May be the timing is bad. But now, I have made up my mind. Honestly, this was hard, harder than I thought, because honestly, I never thought about it. Just thinking about leaving my current job was overwhelming, there were so many strings attached. When I settled in my present job, I made that place my second home. It literally brought me to tears leaving what I created and the students I am associated with for so many years. I realized the students leave too and we can still be in touch like we do always, regardless of whether I was at the same job or not. Thank god, at least one part is taken care off. I got in touch with many of them the same night I had the thought and so many of them communicated back to me till late at night. Then my supervisor and the faculty I have closely worked with, some really awesome people whom I respect so much. Its hard, but I am ready to do it.
Why, how and when did I decide to leave something I built so hard, over so many years. And why at such a wrong time, and when I was in a position to make more difference than ever before, bring more money, more students and more state-of-the art education. Just because I realized I may have the means to do it, but no one would let me. With the change in administration and a major disregard for the faculty at the college, I felt my outlook, goals, dreams to make a difference simply ''had no place" and 'not valued' any more. The more I did, the more I was penalized. When I was called for 3 meetings and yelled at all 3 times, I felt undervalued, disrespected and discriminated. The right thing to do would have been to quit then and there, but I did not. I took time to think, what if I stayed and fought, I could still face disappointment and nothing may change. Its hard when you do everything right and you have to face the consequences for that. I had to decide between living the life of being not valued for my work or value myself, so basically being a fake person or move on where I could be myself and what I did mattered. At the end of the day, I was ready to go somewhere I am appreciated, not tolerated.
I have since used my time away from work and the one million associated things with that to apply for jobs. I am thankful for the peace and to be able to spend time with my family and organize my thoughts. As I wait to hear all outcomes, I wonder where will be my new destination. I am only sure of one thing now, where ever it will be, I will give it my best and hope this new adventure will become my next best decision.
Amidst this chaos, I am rethinking my career. May be the timing is bad. But now, I have made up my mind. Honestly, this was hard, harder than I thought, because honestly, I never thought about it. Just thinking about leaving my current job was overwhelming, there were so many strings attached. When I settled in my present job, I made that place my second home. It literally brought me to tears leaving what I created and the students I am associated with for so many years. I realized the students leave too and we can still be in touch like we do always, regardless of whether I was at the same job or not. Thank god, at least one part is taken care off. I got in touch with many of them the same night I had the thought and so many of them communicated back to me till late at night. Then my supervisor and the faculty I have closely worked with, some really awesome people whom I respect so much. Its hard, but I am ready to do it.
Why, how and when did I decide to leave something I built so hard, over so many years. And why at such a wrong time, and when I was in a position to make more difference than ever before, bring more money, more students and more state-of-the art education. Just because I realized I may have the means to do it, but no one would let me. With the change in administration and a major disregard for the faculty at the college, I felt my outlook, goals, dreams to make a difference simply ''had no place" and 'not valued' any more. The more I did, the more I was penalized. When I was called for 3 meetings and yelled at all 3 times, I felt undervalued, disrespected and discriminated. The right thing to do would have been to quit then and there, but I did not. I took time to think, what if I stayed and fought, I could still face disappointment and nothing may change. Its hard when you do everything right and you have to face the consequences for that. I had to decide between living the life of being not valued for my work or value myself, so basically being a fake person or move on where I could be myself and what I did mattered. At the end of the day, I was ready to go somewhere I am appreciated, not tolerated.
I have since used my time away from work and the one million associated things with that to apply for jobs. I am thankful for the peace and to be able to spend time with my family and organize my thoughts. As I wait to hear all outcomes, I wonder where will be my new destination. I am only sure of one thing now, where ever it will be, I will give it my best and hope this new adventure will become my next best decision.
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